I’ve been out of the loop recently—out of every loop. I’ve not been up for socializing, for staying connected, for anything.
I hate it, because I know how important staying connected is. But every time I try to think of reaching out, I cannot make myself. I won’t go into all the reasons and dynamics.
These feelings are followed by feelings of guilt. How could I possibly not be happy and satisfied? Most people in the world struggle to survive, and here I am, living a great life.
I’m starting to adjust. I’m feeling at home now. But I still struggle with worrying that I don’t know which direction I’m headed in.
Today, I was talking with a group about Genesis 22. At the heart of this passage, and Abraham’s life in general, is his ability to trust that God is the one who provides. I have been the benefactor of God’s provision throughout my whole life. Yet here I am, oftentimes thankless, unsatisfied.
God, forgive me.